User:Amanda Redfield a.k.a Angel of Darkness

Hi my name is Amanda Redfield a.k.a Angel of darkness I know you haven't heard me but we thought it was time you did. I guess I should say what I mean by we what I mean is me and an old neighbor of mine. You heard of him he's is someone who wears a white hoodie, black pants, has graved a smile into his face and burned off his eyelids. While we have decided and what I mean we I actually mean that I decided to write a letter that tells a story on how I have become Angel of Darkness. I'm sure that Jeff will understand on what I doing and he'll be so happy that I did this that he'll punish me for which I will love him for that. Now on to "my" story yes it does have Jeff in it but it's not about  him it's about "me" and "me"alone. Now all of you "lesser beings" and if I have "hurt your feelings" by calling you that take note that "your feelings" do not matter at least not to "me" anyways. Now onto with the story which does not start from the town where "he" got his face it actually takes place in the town where "he" moved from. I was born at the same time as Jeff and I am the same size and weight as Jeff. The house that I lived in was on the same side of the street as Jeff's house and our bedrooms were facing each other.I was born with sapphire blue eyes and black hair. I started my Ninjutus training when I was 5 years old and started to show off the stuff that I learned. Sometimes hanging out "with" Jeff most of the time and when we were alone he would be talking on how his.. "family" was driving him crazy not giving me a choose to listen. Even when I wanted to be alone to practise "my" Ninjutus training he would come and start talking about how.. his "family". I did try to till him that I wanted practise my Ninjutus training but he didn't listen it was like as if my feelings or what I want didn't matter to him. That made me feel angry at him so angry at him that's when I deicide to practise my Ninjutus training on him. I know it was wrong but then a can he didn't give me a choose so it was his fault so it was right for "me" to do so. That was when we started yelling at each other even around our family. After a few days went by and Jeff's attacks started to match mine even his speed and strength started matched mine. It became a point to were we couldn't beat each other because we started to equally matched each others moves. We were driving each other crazy which turned into our fun even more so when we saw that drove our families crazy. Some days I would see Jeff beat up his brother Liu and telling him what to do which I was fine with because it allowed me to practise my Ninjutus training alone. For years it continued at least until it came time when Jeff and his family were to move into a new neighbor and a new better house because his "father" got a pormotion at work. You would think that I would be sad about Jeff moving away but   I    wasn't sad that he was moving in fact I was happy because I can now practise my Ninjutus training without him into interrupting me. He didn't matter to me and at the same time I didn't matter to him which was fine with me. Weeks went by since Jeff moved into "his" new   better house and new neighbor I didn't hear from Jeff which was just fine with me it's not like our friends or anything like that. But I have to adment that apart of me actaully started to miss him a lot. I then went onto the computer and searching on the enter net about people with no emotions at all and at the same time I search for people who do not show emotions. I saw a website that was called Differences Between a Psychopath vs Sociopath it said. Society has conspired with Hollywood to put two seemingly-sexy psychology terms into our collective consciousness psychopath and sociopath. Psychopath and sociopath are pop psychology terms for what psychiatry calls an antisocial personality disorder. Today, these two terms are not really well-defined in the psychology research literature. Nonetheless, there are some general differences these two types of personality types, which we'll talk about in this article. Both types of personality have a pervasive pattern of disregard for the safety and the rights of others. Deceit and manipulation are central features to both types of personality. And contrary to popular belief, a psychopath or sociopath is not necessarily violent. The common features of a psychopath and sociopath lie in their shared diagnosis antisocial personality disorder. The DSM-5 defines antisocial personality as someone have 3 or more of the following trails.

1. Regularly breaks or flaunts the law

2. Constantly lies and deceives others

3. Is impulsive and doesn't plan ahead

4. Can be prone to fighting and aggressiveness

5. Has little regard for the safety of others

6. Irresponsible, can't meet financial obligations

7. Doesn't feel remorse or guilt

Symptoms start before age 15, so by the time a person is an adult, they are well on their way to becoming a psychopath or sociopath.

Then I started to read the Traits of a Psychopath which explains Jeff's personality

Psychology researchers generally believe that psychopaths tends to be born that it's a genetic predisposition while sociopath tend to be made by their environment. Psychopathy might be related to physiological brain differences. Research has shown psychopaths have underdeveloted components of the brain commonly thought to be responsible for emotion regulation and impulse conlrol.

Psychopaths, in general, have a hard time forming real emotional attachments with others. Instead, they form artificial, shallow relationships designed to be manipulated in a way most benefits the psychopath. People are seen as pawns to be used to forward the psychopath's goals. Psychopaths rarely feel guilt regarding any of their behaviors, no matter how much they hurt others.

But psychopaths can often be seen by others as being charming and trustworthy, holding steady, normal jobs. Some even have families and seemingly-loving relationships with a partner. While they tend to be well-educated, they may also have learned a great deal on their own.

When a psychopath engages in criminal behavior, they tend to do so in a way that minimizes risk to themselves. They will carefully plan criminal activity to ensure they don't get caught, having contingency plans in place for every possibility.

Than after that I started to read Traits of a Sociopath which explains my personality

Researchers tend to believe that sociopathy is the result of environmental factors, such as a child or teen's upbringing in a very negative household that in physical abuse, emotional abuse, or childhood trauma.

Sociopaths, in general, tend to be impulsive and erratic in their behavior than their psychopath counterparts. While also having difficulties in forming attachments to others, most sociopaths may be able form an attachment to a like-minded group or person. Unlike psychopaths, most sociopaths don't hold down long-term jobs or present much of a normal family life to the outside world.

When a sociopath engages in criminal behavior, they may do so in an impulsive and largely unplanned manner, with little regard for the risks or consequences of their actions. They may become agitated and angered easily, sometimes resulting in violent outbursts. These kinds of behaviors increase a sociopath's chances of being apprehended.

Who is More Dangerous?

Both psychopaths and sociopaths present risks to society, because they will often try and live a normal life while coping with their disorder, because they experience a lot less guilt connected to their actions.

A psychopath also has a greater ability to dissociate from their actions. Without emotional involvement, any pain that others suffer is meaningless to a psychopath. Many famous serial killers have been psychopaths.

Not all people we'd call a psychopath or sociopath are violent. Violence is not a necessary ingredient (nor is it for a diagnosis of antisocial personality disorder) but it is often present.

Then I started reading clues to a Psychopath or Sociopath in childhood

Clues to psychopathy and sociopathy are usually available in childhood. Most people who can later be diagnosed with sociopathy or psychopathy have had a pattern of behavior where they violate the basic rights or safety of others. They often break the rules (or even laws) and societal norms as a child, too.

Psychologists call these kinds of childhood behaviors a conduct disorder. Conduct disorders involve four categories of problem befavior.

Aggression to people and animals

Destruction of property

Deceitfulness or theft

Serious violations of rules

I than was reading something that tells you if recognize these symptorms (and the Specific symptoms of conduct disorder) in a child or teen, they're at greater risk for antisocial personality disorder.

Didn't read the rest of it because it just a summary of what I was just reading. I started to thinking back at the me and Jeff and thinking about the fights we had and our families faces. Then remembering asking Jeff if he noticed the look on their faces and said of I do and then remembering asking him if he felt joy with the chaos we were making. Then he asked me you want to know how I feel about my families feelings. Honestly I don't care about my families feelings in the same way they don't care about my feelings just like you it is meaningless to care about anybody's feelings. That was what our fights about and most of the time when we had our fights I actaully started feeling sick NOT in the throw up way just in an uneasy way. My mom and dad started to ask me what was are you okay Amanda and I told my mom dad that I was fine I even gave a pretend smile at parents and they lift room. I then heard Jeff ask me did you lie to your parents I saw both mine and his windows were opened and heard the whole thing so I answered yes I did lie to my parents. Then Jeff asked why did you lie to your parents and I answered because I was afraid that they making us stop hang out with each other. So you lied to parents so that we can hang out Jeff asked and I answered yes I did and then he says I fine with that and told him that I was with that to. I mean we aren't doing anything wrong we were just kids having fun I mean so what if some kids got hurt when we were having our fun. I mean those kids shouldn't of got in away of fun me and Jeff we even told our parents and the principle that but they wouldn't listen to us. We got detention for it and grounded for it but that was fine because we were together. Yes there was a lot of bad between us but there was also a lot of good between us to. That is what I think about ever since he    "moved" to his new "better" house and his "new" neighborhood. It was all I could do that and my ninjutus training no friends at least none like "Jeff" was anyway. Before Jeff lift he said that he would call me when ever he gets a chance to so I have been awaiting for a phone call from Jeff. I waited and weeks went by and still no call from Jeff which was fine I mean he could be busy with something which is just fine. Then came the day it was in the middle of the night I woke up because I was thristy so I went down stairs to get a drink of water. I got a cup from the cubrit and then I turned on the water and my finger under the water to see if cold enough to drink. It was and filled my cup with the water turned off the water drank the water in the cup put in the cup into the sink. I started to go back up stairs when the phone rang so I went and picked up the phone and said hello may I ask who's calling. Hi hows my old neighbor of mine wait Jeff is that you why are you calling so late shouldn't you be in bed sleeping. I sorry but it can't wait I have to tell you about my new face Jeff said and I said your new face then I asked him what do you mean your new face. What do I mean my new face asked Jeff just what I said MY new face then he started to tell me on how got his "new" face and when he was done and everything that he did. I then asked Jeff what is he planning on now and he said that I plan to find away back to you of cause really you are going to find back to me. Why I asked Jeff and he answered because I want us to be back together again. Wait you want us to get back together again I asked Jeff don't you want us to be together and have our fun again asked Jeff. Of cause I would love none thing more then to have our fun again we finished our conversation. Before we were done I told him I'll be waiting and we both hung up the phone. I went back to my bedroom and thought about what me and Jeff said and if is mass up as he sounded then I'm going to have become a full sociopath. It a good thing I started researching both psychopath and sociopath and started to do it on what it said that sociopath's do. I learned that sociopath can create other ideantities and that gave me an idea to create a second ideantity for myself. The name for my second ideantity will be Angel of Darkness and the face that I will be using is a Japanese hannya mask. Which I got using my dads credit card. I even order two long katanas some throwing knifes, Kaginawa, Hand/Foot Spikes, some smoke bombs and some fabic that I am going to turn into my ninja outfit. I even made it that it was my dad ordered the stuff and that he was doing it for a special "someone" and I did that as a joke which I laughing at when he hears it. I put back my fathers credit card went back to my bedroom into my bed and went to sleep. For days I waited for my dads packets or I should say "my" packets to arrive. Then I put them in hide out which "Jeff" knew about was fine by me. Years went by and I haven't seen Jeff yet which was great because I don't need him just yet. I am getting close to becoming a full ninja master for my second ideantity. Then more years went by and I am 20 years old now and I have made my ninja outfit one outfit is black and covers almost all of my body and a outfit that is red that goes over it. I am now a full ninja master. I even have my drivers licenses now and my parents gave me my own car for getting my drivers licenses and becoming a ninja master and for being a good daughter. Now that I have completed my goals it's time for me to start my life as a full sociopath. Which means that it is time for me to get "rid" of my parents. But before I do I should go and find Jeff to see if he would love to help me kill my parents. It would be fare to have him to help after all he is the one who help me become a full sociopath. I mean if it wasn't for our fighting/fun and him calling me that night. I wouldn't have become the person I am today and so it would be fare for me to invite him to join me. So I started searching for him and found that he was in the old abandoned Denbigh asylum. I then told my parents that I was going a trip and wouldn't know when I will be back. After a long drive I finelly came to the old abandoned Denbigh asylum. I got out of my car with a flashlight that I took with and started go into the asylum. JEFF I yelled calling his name many times as I can and finally I found him. I started to tell him why I was there for after telling him who I was and after we both lift the asylum. We came to my parents house but before we went into the house I went to my hideout. Jeff waited outside my hideout so I can get my outfit on. After I put my outfit on we then went into the house after I unlocked the of the house with the spare key I had. Then we started to go up stairs and saw my parents sleeping in other bed we both went around the bed. We grad and force my parents out of bed hi Mr and Mrs Redfeild it's nice to see you again Jeff told to my parents. Jeff is that you asked my parents do you like what I've done to my face asked Jeff. I loved the look on my parents faces when were trying to find the words to say about his face seeing the fear on their faces it was breath taking. I then whispered into Jeff's ear and said I like what you've done to your face. He whispered rightly you like what I've done to my face of course I do and truth be told my heart was pounding when I was looking at his face. I actually wanted to make love with him but that wasn't the only thing that was making my heart pound it was the fun we were having. I told Jeff that when I whispered into his ear and told him that I would love nothing more than to make love to him. He then tells my parents that it is was time for them to go  to   sleep he then takes out his knife out of his pocket. My dad tried being a hero but I quickly taking took one of my long katanas and quickly stabed him straight into my dads chant and out his back. I took my long katana from my dads body and my dads body fall to the floor. My mom screamed when she saw dad die but then Jeff takes his hand and grabs the back of my moms head and says oh don't cry you will be with him again. After that Jeff takes the knife and starts to push the knife into her face and right between her eyes. This made me take off my mask and give him a kiss on his cheek. When Jeff was done of my mom me and Jeff made love together in my parents bed as their bodies lay in pool of blood on the floor. When me and Jeff were done we went and put our clothes back on. Me an Jeff then take all the money from dads wallet and even the credit cards. Before we left the house I got all of my clothes put them in two suit cases Jeff help me carry one of them to the car. I then locked the house door me and Jeff both left in my car we went bank. Making sure that wouldn't be seen in the camera that was on the machine I went up and took all the cash that was on the credit cards. I went back to the car got in it and gave  haft of the cash to Jeff both said our goods and went on our spit ways. Me and Jeff aren't always together mostly because we always enjoy doing our own things. Which we did for many years Jeff his own thing and me doing my own thing which is the thing sociopath's well knew for. Which brings us to an other reason I am writing this letter how about it friend are you up for some fun. With me and an "old" neighbor of mine you know him come on it be a lot of fun it will be just be me and an "old" neighbor of mine he will be so happy that you did and so will I Amanda Redfeild a.k.a Angel of Darkness.