User:Jingle Bella

I feel misunderstood but I guess I can't really expect people to look past appearances. I used to come off in a certain light that made me look suspicious or disrespectful, but I'm really just bad at social interaction and failed to address things properly, my joking around probably didn't help. There were other times... Don't expect me to react with total niceness to hostility, disrespect or perceived unfairness, but I've learned to control myself and be objective to solve it to an extent. Forgiveness is nice. There's a point where forgiveness has its limits and accountability comes into play. If I do something out of line or unfair, I'd want people to tell me about my actions because I'm not perfect but I want and try to do the right thing. Like anyone, I make mistakes but I learn from them. I regret. I don't always understand others but strive to understand. The only thing I can do now is live and be what I want to be rather than what people label me. People aren't always what they look like and there's probably reasons why people do something. Being liked by everyone is nice and probably appreciated, but it isn't everything. It'd be nice to live in a world where I'm not hated, but if I must live in a world where I am, I'd like to spend it living with people who care about me and me them. I don't use people and discard them. If people care about me, I care about them. In general, I try to be caring when it counts. Being pretty or handsome is a nice thing, eh? I don't think it's what should matter over what's on the inside. If I'm going to die, I'd want to die a good person.

There's songs that inspire me. The kind of songs that remind me about what I believed in.

I would never cheat on someone and I'm also not a gold-digger or greedy. If somebody no longer desired me, I hope they just break up with me rather than cheat on me or use me but I wouldn't be vindictive regardless, I'd probably just move on. I hope they're honest and I'll not be getting a sexually transmitted disease... The solution is to not have sex! I'm kinda weird since I don't personally get upset about girlfriend/boyfriend issues that happen to me, not enough to harm someone. I might accuse you of being an asshole for taking advantage of someone else depending on how you treat a girl or guy. Repeatedly cheating on someone, knowingly just using them, knowingly harming them by hiding an STD or harming someone isn't cool. Knowingly having an STD and having sex with someone, who doesn't know you have it and domestic violence is sue-able in a court of law. There's the role-play element and consent to consider in BDSM, but there should be safe boundaries between consenting parties. People have open relationships too.

I'm not even pretty. I only see having money as a means to survive and help other people, but I would want to work hard for what I have and be grateful for what I have regardless and I will fairly work to achieve these things. I do a lot of self-reflection but I don't care only for myself and I do consider what other people feel and think and need. Oddly enough, it's not threats towards my person that I fear, it's the kind of person I am that I fear and the kind of person I am is something that I would like to control. I'm not the type of coward that does things only for themselves and not the type of person that does things because of self-preservation above everything else.

In gratitude, there's people out there I'd like to thank for being nice to me and understanding me and helping me.

I have depression and I've had it for a long time, but I'm not looking for attention or pity. It's something I'm trying to get past this year. There's nothing wrong with crying, but I never cry over losing a game or losing to other people.

I never lie to get others in trouble, I'd feel pretty bad about that... It would go against my morals. I'm mostly harmless, I like to avoid violence in favor of defense. People can be stopped with words, but just in case that they can't, probably should act to prevent something bad from happening.