User:Efmunnition

I'm tired of being labeled as something I'm not. I'm not as dumb as I look, but I don't think I'm a bad person. It's not like I'm totally incapable of some semblance of intelligence. I'm pretty sure I'm not stupid... but I have made decisions that I have regretted at times by being impulsive. There have been actions that I have sometimes been forced to take due to certain situations and there have been times that I have made mistakes, and I do try to change myself and prevent myself from making these mistakes. People judge based on appearance even if they haven't even talked to me much. Despite not being the smartest, I'm not a bad person in the end and I give a damn if I'm doing something wrong and I try to give a damn about people; except when they apparently dislike me for absurd reasons, but even I wouldn't do something bad to someone merely because I disliked them or someone who disliked me. I try to be reasonable and I'm not cruel despite what I may come off as. I only really respond badly to someone who treats me in the same manner or who I think is over the line, but trying to be good isn't always easy. I'm forgiving though and acknowledge when people change. I really believe in reform, justice, compassion, and empathy, but sometimes force is somewhat necessary to stop a person from doing something they might regret. Sometimes I might be the one needed to be stopped and I probably wouldn't hold it against you to stop me. I actually do care about people other than myself.... I'm not cruel nor bloodthirsty nor arrogant nor powerhungry despite what I may look like; I have never mocked the weak.

I have morals. I hate politics, but it's something that can be used for good. I never said I was perfect. I acknowledge when people change for good. I certainly don't trash-talk... I'm not the type to bully the weak and I don't torture people. I'm not violent really. I would like to avoid unnescessary violence. I have never claimed I was a genius. I don't care if people hate me for bullshit reasons. I generally don't look down on people for absurd reasons... I try to understand where they come from while saying what needs to be said.

I'm not the bravest person out there, I must admit, I'd choose to run in real life over fighting a losing battle where I could possibly die or get hurt... If possible, I wouldn't like to leave other people to die or get hurt though. I understand and respect people who put their lives on the line to protect people. In a game, there's no real fear of losing or dieing, though I'd choose to run for strategical/tactical reasons only; I would probably stay even if I were losing unless I had more important things to do. :P

I don't care about popularity although it is nice and appreciated, I'd rather do the right thing and keep true friends.

I'm incredibly lazy at times, but I do have goals I want to accomplish that aren't for myself so it's something I'm willing to work on and do my part in. :/

I feel more at peace fading in the background... No psychological war. No destructive war. No manipulation. No drama. It made me slightly insane at one point. I've never been drunk, but I have at one point in time have felt insane. I'd like to think I'm not abusive though. The only thing I miss is people that I've come to feel as if were family and I'm grateful for the nice people I've encountered out there... I wish I could pay back those who actually care about me or have been genuinely nice to me without going over the line... I did care, I at least try to care.

I don't like assholism in general. I'm not a guy hater... but I'm not guy crazy either. I'm fairly courteous to women in general. I wouldn't wage a destructive or psychological war on the internet for fun or for absolutely petty reasons... It's something I'd actually like to avoid if possible but self-defense against such things is understandable and changing a corrupt governing body by removing abusive people in charge might be for the best. Though I don't see why people can't just talk about it diplomatically first and I don't see why people can't change. People aren't always perfect, but they do have redeeming qualities. In real life, it's not that simple though, removing corrupt people in governing bodies is a part of progress... It's just the steps to remove those people can be costly at times and sometimes more lives are taken than for what it's worth; there are times though when there are hard choices to make, thereby trading 1 life to save many more.

I'm not the type of person to frame someone else for what I've done... I'm also not evil. I would like to avoid betraying people who show trust in me... I'm loyal to a point. I've never been scared of trolls, the reflection is probably what scares me the most. I would not abandon someone to die if it were possible, but I just don't want to deal with any drama or antagonism that comes as a result of the past anymore. On the internet, death can mean a variety of things; not necessarily an actual death, which is why I'm not afraid of being threatened by internet deaths or dying an internet death. Though, it'd be so nice to live in peace. I don't expect people not to retaliate if I do something out of line. I don't expect to be forgiven but at the very least I can say 'sorry' and mean it. I'd like to move on regardless of what others think of me as. In real life, I would probably run if my life was in danger. In a game, I'd probably run if it were the pragmatic thing to do but not because I'm afraid to die since I'll probably just ressurect and not because I lack loyalty. I feel healthier and happier in another place and fading in the background, though my only reason for coming back to another place would be to visit some people. I don't particularly care if I die an internet death as long as the people who truly care about me don't hate me or I'm not doing anything bad. I'm afraid of turning into someone I don't like and afraid of losing real friends.

I value friendship a lot to a point... I'm not the type of person who would willingly sacrifice other people and I couldn't bring myself to do so. I kind of find it funny how I'm labeled as someone who would torture people.... when I'm not. I'm not as bad as I look, but I'm generally not a cruel person or a bully. I also would never comit any morally atrocious acts... I have pride as a decent human being. Right now, I can say with confidence that I'm not that kind of person and I feel that it's been like that for a long while and in the past, although I think I have made mistakes just like any other person out there... I'm not power hungry enough to step on other people and I wouldn't step on other people to keep my own power and I wouldn't mind giving my spot to someone who is more capable and suitable than me, though people who don't know me too well will probably judge me that way... I think power is pretty much meaningless unless you use it for good. I've never really sought out power although I tended to just somehow be given it... I don't really care much about it in comparison to doing good and people I consider friends. Although it is nice to have rules that prevent things from getting out of hand and it is nice to work towards something good. I even said 'I don't care who rules as long they're mentally stable, fair and have decent morals' once... At the time I wasn't mentally stable. I wouldn't have minded a peace treaty either as long as the peace treaty was geared towards good. I would've liked to avoid killing people if it were possible, specially innocent people. I've had feelings that I try to supress I must admit, but I try not to let them overcome what I should do in responsibility. No matter what people label me as - I know I'm not that bad. I was never that snobby or someone who'd tell people I am the brains or beauty as a way of rubbing it in, rather it's to reaffirm my confidence that I'm not that dumb or bad looking... I don't even think I'm pretty. I believe though, that inner beauty shines over outer beauty (It doesn't really matter how pretty someone is on the outside, but it is nice). I'm also not an egomaniac... I mean if people don't adore me it's not like I'm going to be upset or do something malicious as a result of someone being better liked than me. Not the type of person to steal someone elses' boyfriend/girlfriend. I wouldn't marry someone for money... I'm not a gold digger. I'm also not elitist. I'm not easily jealous... I don't attack people as a result of my jealousy and I don't talk behind peoples backs because I'm jealous... I can say this with confidence. I'm not the type to try to ruin other peoples' reputations or not the type to try to break up other peoples friendships.. I feel that that goes against a code of honor that makes me feel like a shitty person.. I kinda draw the line though at abusive relationships... I can't support it, but I'd support change in people who regret and then maybe I'd be okay with supporting their relationship, though I feel that true friends are hard to come by, people who won't abandon you when you're at your lowest point... I don't like abandoning anyone if it were possible. Here I am kinda just fading in the background because I don't feel comfortable in another place even though I'd probably like to see some people again. I could choose to ressurect myself any time, but I'm content in fading into the background. I have said some things that make me look suspicious, but my intent was to avoid 'killing' anyone and try to avoid it when possible. If I said I never looked like I threatened people, that would be a lie but there's usually a reason for it, either reaction to being threatened myself or an attempt to stop something that could possibly lead to something bad or 'kill myself/image',  but I'm not as bad as I look. I'd like to believe I'm not a bully in general. I'm okay with failure as Iong as I try my best and try to learn from it... Maybe it's because I"m a failure too... It doesn't matter if I fail as long as I try my best and try to learn from it. Though, some mistakes are too dangerous to make and it would be good not to make them for these type of mistakes can harm myself and other people. :/

Yeah the thing about being labeled by people who don't know me well... I don't need to be what people label me as and just because people label as a certain type of person, doesn't mean that it is true.

I'm not a mean or cruel person generally despite what I may look like to other people. I'm not that selfish and don't brag much, I don't aim to just have a better life for myself, my goal in life is to help other people help themselves and help others, no matter what people label me as. I don't really find much point in being selfish because at the end of it all, material possessions aren't going with me when I die. I'm just not very good at social interaction. I only tend to react not too nice to someone who treats me badly, but it's not like I'd wish anyone dead, and it' not like I'd wish for people to not be successful if those successful people had a good attitude and if those people try to do good. I've been threatened at times under the moonlight and this much is true and I'm not even saying this to get pity. Though... I try not to be a bad person. I tend to only react not so nice to someone who treats me badly or had to commit certain actions for certain reasons. Right, I'm not defined by what I'm labeled as, but who I am on the inside and my actions. No matter what person I'm labeled as now, I know that I am a decent person, it just makes me feel at ease to write down all this stuff.

Did not try to eat an innocent superhero, though I am really not a cannibal! I just feel that I'm not really understood sometimes, but I can't really expect people to see past an image... Ah, cardboard, how nice it is to be labeled as such. I'd like to think that I don't turn on people who are nice to me, but there are situations in which people can't compromise morals, though I am greatful to those who were nice to me and would like to repay that kindness in a reasonable and not out of line way. I'd like to think I'm not abusive in general. I found other people willing to give me a chance and I'm greatful for them... I would never take advantage of that kindness. I'm not the type of person to use and discard people.

I'm actually bi, in love with a guy, but would otherwise lean more towards girls... I didn't force anyone to marry me. I also wouldn't treat someone badly just because they're romantically involved with the guy I like. I don't look down on people for sleeping around, but I think sleeping around does have consequences in regards to other people and I think people should be treated with basic human respect... It's sad that there are people out there forced into that kind of business and use it as a way to survive or have been forced into it. I'd be insulted if people thought I was the kind of person who was abusive and who thought that just because people sleep around that they don't deserve basic human respect, out of moral pride. I generally do not stereotype people in one pile of category either.

I don't claim to be talented in particularly anything, but I do try to learn. I love cooking as a hobby, but I probably wouldn't enter a competition because I feel that I wouldn't be good enough to participate. Even if I were a participant... I'd strive to be an honorable participant.

I'm not fond of trolls in general to be honest, but they're there and I can't really do anything about it. Only thing I can do is not let it affect me or just ignore them or I could address it to vent and resolve any issues that might come up. I'd rather just move on with my life without worrying about trolls and hope they just leave me alone... Some people though, I really think should fuck off because they're not very nice and I'm tired of bullshit. Ain't it nice of trolls to prey on insecurity and try to intimidate people? Though, I could always take it with a grain of salt. I'm not evil... at least I try not to be... I have bad thoughts from time to time resulting from either trolls or someone who I think displays bad attitude, but I don't let it overtake what I should do in regards to responsibiity. Maybe I'm being paranoid, but I have reasons to be. You know what though, people make mistakes that they may regret and who am I to say that they won't change attitudes? Maybe what they show to the world isn't who they really are.

I did genuinely care for other people, but maybe I'm tired of caring for people who could care less about me. I strive to understand other people. To the people who actually did care or who were genuinely concerned, I owe it to them.

People might look at me as selfish, but they probably don't know me well enough in real life. I can perhaps be selfish, but I'm not that selfish... Although being popular is appreciated... It's not the end of the world if I'm not and I'd rather keep real friends, though I am open to new people in my life. I don't feel a need to prove myself to others for bad intentions and bad attitudes, but a need to prove myself to myself of doing things and accomplishing goals I wish to accomplish with good intentions and a good attitude.

I feel like it's hell sometimes on certain places on the internet. but concerning some of the people there, I feel that it would've been worth it to stay for them. Not to say I'm afraid of internet threats or certain people, I feel that my mental and emotional health would be better off in another place. I wouldn't say I'm full of myself though, I mean I generally try not to fall into the arrogance trap and I know the world doesn't revolve around me, but I can't help but see things that are related to me, related to people I know and the past sometimes. Though, I know people could be talking about something else entirely. I want to fade into the background and I desire to just privately talk with people... but I'm cripplingly shy to anywhere I may have had a falling out or haven't talked to in years.

I would never pretend someone else raped me, but I would totally be against rape and wouldn't allow anyone to get raped. D:

... I'm generally not willing to sacrifice other people.

I'm rarely jealous and I'm not that self-centered or arrogant.

People aren't always what they look like.

Favorite Characters:

Dante - Devil May Cry

He cares for people like his brother and his mother, and does have a sense of honor and a moral code.

Lady - Devil May Cry

I like her

James - Pokemon

I like him because he's a kind and nice guy.

Meowth - Pokemon

Meowth, because he's a cat and tried to win the heart of this other cat.. He has a heart.