User:DamnedToHell

I'm at peace with being dead some other place as long as I get to live as a ghost and haunt people that are important to me and be around them... Whoaoaooo! Throwing out all the chances that I've had to pursue power at the expense of other people and leaving it behind. It's a lonely, arduous road that in the end will leave you bankrupt as an individual sometimes. I wouldn't recommend it. I'll support anyone who pursues power and money for good within moral constraints and acceptable standards of conduct and reform. I was never actually that mean. Half of the time I'd be misunderstood for something I said. I'm also generally not a bully and don't care about popularity for the sake of being popular. I also think some of the people around me may've been misunderstood, but at times felt acted like an asshole. People do change and I want to believe in that, but I know not everyone is what they look like all the time. I tried to be understanding but I'm not perfect. I've made mistakes myself. Probably damned myself to hell for others, but I change too. Every time I could've done anything at the expense of other people, I most often just chose to do something at my expense. Some people are motivated by power and money for the sake of having it, but me I couldn't give a damn about those things. I sacrificed every material thing, image, that I owned in the past. It doesn't mean I'd sacrifice other people or leave anything to destruction. I didn't however sacrifice certain morals or people. I can be labeled any type character out there, but it doesn't mean people really know me. I obviously don't like torturing people. If you're going to act like an asshole just don't expect people to be nice to you, but I digress of having tried to at least be civil and try to be understanding. I do admit to trolling just a little in the past... I can... snap sometimes but that's only when provoked. Most of the time I didn't really feel anything other than an innate sense of a defense mechanism. I would not invite someone back with the purpose of humiliating them however. I kind of used to test people sometimes, but I would never use violence and torture. I'm a lot better at handling these type of things in modern times and I'm quite honest about what I think to others nowadays. Not going to lie, I did feel at one point I wanted revenge on someone for somebody else, due to reasons that would've probably been justified, before I realized how much it wasn't worth it and probably the only reason I didn't was because I cared along with having apprehensions of whether what I was doing was okay and I certainly wouldn't destroy planets... I'm not okay with destruction.

I once wanted to arrest Atomsk, who was allegedly the Pirate King at the time, without actually knowing him personally. That awkward moment when he's next to you. Obviously my aim wasn't to get someone elses' power. Obviously I didn't rob anyone to sustain my selfish desire to live a world where I committed suicide. I think I owe people though and I wanted to return what I owed out of gratitude. I guess I wanted to see some progress, reform and change. Yeah, I'm probably going to get flak for that.

I poke fun at myself mostly, I poke fun at situations, I poke fun at people, but it's almost never really in a mean-spirited way unless someone is determined to be hard to deal with... Assholes. I know trolling when I see it. Though, there are different types of trolls with different alignments. I just didn't want to prolong a pointless fight. I didn't want to do anything that would be a burden, but I really could not help but feel the way I did. I did things that I have probably regretted for reasons. It doesn't matter though now, because I know people change and they're not always what they look like... Most of the people I joked around with were people I knew and were comfortable with. On the surface of things, most people didn't really know me well. At times, I am quite sarcastic in a fun loving and non mean-spirited way. People don't always pick up on that. Never called anyone a loser. I never called anyone fat in a mean way. Never taunted people for their appearances, which by the way was only mentioned in a rap battle which shouldn't even be taken too seriously. I quote "Beauty will fade with age, what's left is your soul, personality and knowledge.". I didn't lead people in a chorus mocking someone for being a 'king'. I was never racist either. I refuse to fit into the mold someone else makes me out to be and that is why I tend to often state, that yes I'm a good person. I'm just not too great at expressing myself. I'm not a narcissist by the way... I'm not after being the center of attention. I don't consider other people to be chained to perform my will. I also don't consider people to be something to use and discard. I just want to be okay with what kind of person I am. I was upset at the death of someone else... I'm divided between sides though, and the past isn't always applicable to how someone is now. It's perhaps best to start new elsewhere rather than purposely sabotage other people. I grew up in a pirate type of guild even though I didn't like piracy myself, which by the way, has probably become The Pirates Who Don't Do Anything TV trope type of guild. I'd rather have it that way, unless they're choosing to act in defense or against the destruction of guilds and reform, but everyone has their own lives. In the end I wouldn't want the death of others. Though I think people should take responsibility and be accountable for their actions. I wouldn't mind starting with a clean slate, not just for myself but others, even if I was previously threatened by others. One thing that won't make me follow someone is out of being threatened. I've got other reasons for it.

Quite interesting how people seem to want to rule the world without considering the massive responsibility it entails and the massive mobilization it would require and the consequences of having done it the wrong way. It's in my opinion, that it can be too much for one person to hold and so it is necessary to pass it on to the right people, because absolute power can corrupt absolutely. There will always be people diverging on ideologies. It's why some wars are instigated, if not for profit, built on the blood of millions, but it'd be nice to prevent bloodshed wouldn't it. It'd be nice to live in a world where no one has to do die and everything's right. Don't expect people not to point a gun at you if you've got one pointed at them. Don't expect no resistance when committing to unjustified invasions. I'd probably accept help to rebuild for my former country though, if that's what others offer and what they choose to do, and I'd be grateful. It was just a place where I felt at home before, family, if I had a choice, I'd reform it to represent what's good, to provide aid to other people, if it's not already reformed, but I'm not going back to my former country. To change anything, you've got to say something and do something, I'd rather take the reform route, but I know that route isn't always viable.

I don't care if you're famous, have power, have popularity, have intelligence or have money. I would still care even if you weren't... If someone cared about me, I would appreciate that a lot and make an effort to care about someone else back, but I would ultimately disagree if I have to on certain issues that I can't bring myself to agree with. I was once a generally compassionate person and I do try to be so right now, but I'm quite jaded. I'm not going to agree to everything someone else says. I actually wanted independence for my former country, but I didn't want bloodshed or destruction or slavery or to commit unacceptable standards of conduct. Ha, I once had the intention of creating healer ninjas. I am however, great-full for others support. The deaths of others is a big regret of mine, and I probably would've rather died instead. I'm not a saint, but I've always been caring... The only times I feel like I want to live is to talk with people who are important to me. It's not about status for me, if I cared about that, I wouldn't associate with people others look down on for the wrong reasons, but maybe because I'm look down on too.

I don't think I'm entitled to something I did not work for or earn or feel like I've done something that is unacceptable to my standards of conduct. I am pretty grateful to others when I am warranted to. I am trying to determine what is happening and what I should do in regards to current events or if I even should mention or do anything at all, taking a second look at the different perspectives I'm looking at. Everyone has a reason to do what they do. I really don't think that someone's a psychopath just because they're labeled one, but people have their own reasons for actions. I also think that there's a reasonable limit where the past shouldn't really be considered as the person they are now. They're not always what they look like. People change. I never actually killed anyone because I committed suicide instead. Although I'm grateful to others, I can probably hold my own and never really thought about romance much in the past before I realized I was in love with someone. I won't however, let people destroy my new home, what I've built along with others to represent a place for people to feel welcome as long as they don't act like an asshole towards others and can get along with them, and against the elitism rampant elsewhere. I'm not going to die there.

I wouldn't abandon people, even if everyone hated them. That is of course, is if I have to let go because they want to. I'm unwilling to frame others for something that should be my responsibility and I wouldn't consciously frame anyone. Right, and rape is something I'd consider not acceptable to be okay with.

Do you know what it takes to be a real hero? Real heroes don't frame people and don't have a need to be a hero by slaying others just to gain a title of hero when people show regret and changes. It's not about a destiny, it's about the choices you make and you can make your own choices outside of destinies people set up for you.

I would probably like Neil Goldman as a friend. He can probably find someone else to love him as more than a friend someday. He seems like a nice guy.

It's okay to be gay. I love gay boys. No wonder. O.o

It's comforting to know when alone and abandoned that there's someone out there who will always care about you, even if you don't necessarily agree to everything that someone does or says. For that, I'm grateful. Even on my own, with everything raining down on me, I won't kowtow to your tune just because you're powerful, popular, have money. Just give me a good reason why I should agree with you. I don't care about being a hero at all costs. I just care about doing the right thing no matter how hard it is. Even if it makes me a villain.

People do change.

I think the following has interesting lyrics.

In this moment - Whore

One Mic - Nas

The All-American Rejects - Top of the World