User:Efmunnition

I'm tired of being labeled as something I'm not. I'm not as dumb as I look, but I don't think I'm a bad person. It's not like I'm totally incapable of some semblance of intelligence. I'm pretty sure I'm not stupid... but I have made decisions that I have regretted at times by being impulsive. There have been actions that I have sometimes been forced to take due to certain situations and there have been times that I have made mistakes, and I do try to change myself and prevent myself from making these mistakes. People judge based on appearance even if they haven't even talked to me much. Despite not being the smartest, I'm not a bad person in the end and I give a damn if I'm doing something wrong and I try to give a damn about people; except when they apparently dislike me for absurd reasons, but even I wouldn't do something bad to someone merely because I disliked them or someone who disliked me. I try to be reasonable and I'm not cruel despite what I may come off as. I only really respond badly to someone who treats me in the same manner or who I think is over the line, but trying to be good isn't always easy. I'm forgiving though and acknowledge when people change. I really believe in reform, justice, compassion, and empathy, but sometimes force is somewhat necessary to stop a person from doing something they might regret. Sometimes I might be the one needed to be stopped and I probably wouldn't hold it against you to stop me. I actually do care about people other than myself.... I'm not cruel nor bloodthirsty nor arrogant nor powerhungry despite what I may look like; I have never mocked the weak.

I have morals. I hate politics, but it's something that can be used for good. I never said I was perfect. I acknowledge when people change for good. I certainly don't trash-talk... I'm not the type to bully the weak and I don't torture people. I'm not violent really. I would like to avoid unnescessary violence. I have never claimed I was a genius. I don't care if people hate me for bullshit reasons. I generally don't look down on people for absurd reasons... I try to understand where they come from while saying what needs to be said.

I'm not the bravest person out there, I must admit, I'd choose to run in real life over fighting a losing battle where I could possibly die or get hurt... If possible, I wouldn't like to leave other people to die or get hurt though. I understand and respect people who put their lives on the line to protect people. In a game, there's no real fear of losing or dieing, though I'd choose to run for strategical/tactical reasons only; I would probably stay even if I were losing unless I had more important things to do. :P

I don't care about popularity although it is nice and appreciated, I'd rather do the right thing and keep true friends.

I'm incredibly lazy at times, but I do have goals I want to accomplish that aren't for myself so it's something I'm willing to work on and do my part in. :/

I feel more at peace fading in the background... No psychological war. No destructive war. No manipulation. No drama. It made me slightly insane at one point. I've never been drunk, but I have at one point in time have felt insane. I'd like to think I'm not abusive though. The only thing I miss is people that I've come to feel as if were family and I'm grateful for the nice people I've encountered out there... I wish I could pay back those who actually care about me or have been genuinely nice to me without going over the line... I did care. I at least try to care.

I don't like assholism in general. I'm not a guy hater... but I'm not guy crazy either. I'm fairly courteous to women in general. I wouldn't wage a destructive or psychological war on the internet for fun or for absolutely petty reasons... It's something I'd actually like to avoid if possible but self-defense against such things is understandable and changing a corrupt governing body by removing abusive people in charge might be for the best. Though I don't see why people can't just talk about it diplomatically first and I don't see why people can't change. People aren't always perfect, but they do have redeeming qualities. In real life, it's not that simple though, removing corrupt people in governing bodies is a part of progress... It's just the steps to remove those people can be costly at times and sometimes more lives are taken than for what it's worth; there are times though when there are hard choices to make, thereby trading 1 life to save many more.

I'm not the type of person to frame someone else for what I've done. I'm also not evil and would like to avoid betraying people who show trust in me, I'm loyal to a point. I've never been scared of trolls, the reflection is probably what scares me the most. I would not abandon someone to die if it were possible, but I just don't want to deal with any drama or antagonism that comes as a result of the past anymore. On the internet, death can mean a variety of things; not necessarily an actual death, which is why I'm not afraid of being threatened by internet deaths or dying an internet death. Though, it'd be so nice to live in peace. I don't expect people not to retaliate if I do something out of line. I don't expect to be forgiven but at the very least I can say 'sorry' and mean it. I'd like to move on regardless of what others think of me as. In real life, I would probably run if my life was in danger. In a game, I'd probably run if it were the pragmatic thing to do but not because I'm afraid to die since I'll probably just ressurect and not because I lack loyalty. I feel healthier in another place. I value friendship a lot to a point... I'm not the type of person who would willingly sacrifice other people. I kind of find it funny how I'm labeled as someone who would torture people.... when I'm not. I'm not as bad as I look, but I'm generally not a cruel person or a bully. Right now, I can say with confidence that I'm not that kind of person and I feel that it's been like that for a long while and in the past, although I think I have made mistakes just like any other person out there.

I'm not a mean or cruel person generally despite what I may look like to other people. I'm just not very good at social interaction. I only tend to react not too nice to someone who treats me badly, but it's not like I'd wish anyone dead, and it' not like I'd wish for people to not be successful if those successful people had a good attitude and if those people try to do good. Right, I'm not defined by what I'm labeled as, but who I am on the inside and my actions.