Thread:Jester of chaos/@comment-29414935-20191217152856/@comment-29414935-20200117113409

I want to say that writing on here is kinda somehow easier and clearer as on gmail. So I have the idea to write normal stuff here and if we send our drawings we use gmail. Is that ok for you?

I have another thing I want to talk with you. I have seen older chats with people I don't like on social media platforms like Facebook or Instagram, and it made me a little bit mad because I remembered things I didn't wanted to remember and I have forgotten about. I remembered that I had a friend (never saw her as a real friend), which was a fad and dumb girl, I didn't liked her character and she was annoyed and mean so quick. And I remember her hating a dragon lady character from one of my stories, and it hit me now when I remembered even if it was like 6 years ago and I didn't cared back then. I don't know what made me so sensitive and fragile, because I was mentally so strong and hard back then. I want to be like that again. At that time when she said that, I didn't cared and was writing with her normally and don't even insulted or blocked her. It just started 4 years ago when she didn't liked Zootopia and had no real reason called and said she hated the parents of Judy. That was the time when I was starting to get sensitive more and more. And I just don't know why. Back then I forgot things very fast and it didn't destroyed my view on my or other characters. Nowadays I remember everything. And that sucks, because now I know what this person thinks of my character again and it somehow destroys everything.

I know that people hate on characters and that my characters are going to be loved or hated too. Not everyone thinks the same about them. But somehow it annoys me and I care about it. I mean the dragon lady is one of my most classic and oldest characters. She was before the wolf lady or other humanoid animal characters I made nowadays. And in my younger days, it was even more creative in character design and developement than now, to be honest. And I was able to punish my characters more without it hurting me. Another thing I'm more sensitive now. I kinda regret that the dragon lady is a extreme scapegoat. She was from beginning that character. She is a greedy and attractive woman who is very arrogant and egoistic. And she kinda deserves some of her punishments but some go too far. But it's for children and meant to be comedic and cartoony. But I kinda feel bad for letting her suffer so much.