Thread:Jester of chaos/@comment-29414935-20191217152856/@comment-29414935-20200130102743

Thanks to my mother, because she always wants to talk about this theme, I think about death again. And I don't know why but instead of ignoring it, it got stuck in my head again and I googled what got it really stuck again. I thought I was over it but I still can't really speak about it. I'm so scared when I think about it that I got panik attacks and could cry because of this sad thoughts I have about it. I'm so depressed right know again and remembered some sh*tty garbage people again that were cynical atheists. And I hate these people so much that I just whish them the worst. And I hate it that religion is always critized and portrayed as evil and cynical, because I know much more atheists that are cynical, insult your believes and yourself and want to change you. That's why I think there must be more cynical Pure Evil villains in movies and other media, and not the often used religious dark messiah sect leader. That's also why I have many cynical atheists and nihilists in my stories, that are Pure Evil villains.