User:Ella Ella Ella

I've never been a mean person to someone who hasn't themselves been mean, but I always did try to be nice. If you seriously cannot take it, don't come crying about how mean I am when I've mostly been kind to other people and someone else is the one either instigating a fight and the one saying all sorts of shit. Then again, people aren't always what they look like and people do change. I never wanted anything but to actually have real friends, spend time with them and exist. To help people, but all I was asking was for was for was no destructive or horrible tactics and other people could technically change to help instead of be stuck in a perpetual cycle of villainy. I'm not abusive or horrible, neither am I uncaring towards others but certain people tend to blame me because they don't see what's happening in the background like I do and I have to be stuck getting blamed for things because people don't get me much. :/

I have always thought Masters was a nice person that cared about his friends, was misunderstood and was someone I admired a lot, but it just so happened that I stumbled across a Doctor, which put me smack dab in the middle of a conflict I felt uncomfortable with that's now pretty much over. If all someone wanted was to do good and change for the better and feel like they belonged somewhere, there's a likely chance that I'll probably help them do it if it doesn't harm other innocent people or people I happen to care about. I have a sense of justice like anyone else, but I'm heavy on the reformation part because everyone makes mistakes, including myself.

Well, I do admit that I had only wanted revenge for my dad, CARL, but I wouldn't do it at the cost of other people or sacrificing a whole guild. The past has already passed so there's not much point in dwelling in it. Gus doesn't seem to mind and has even moved on to better things than the past... I tend to easily forgive people. Yeah you know what, don't put labels on me that you know isn't true, like being a psychotic woman that apparently leaves people to die and is totally uncaring about others when in reality I had never left anyone to die and I did care for a select few people... I just wasn't willing to harm innocent people and always tried to think of others. I considered people as my friends so why would I enslave them, it wasn't about being rich but helping other people... lol. I spent most of my time aiming for reformation and trying to give other people chances even when people didn't show me the same damn courtesy, even when I was showing empathy, so for you to tell me I'm this kind of person is pretty much bullshit, even when other people are honestly being assholes first. Don't blame me for your asshole... You wouldn't understand at all. You can dislike me all you want, but that doesn't mean you know what sort of person I am. I had people that I cared about that were on different sides, but despite some bad memories in a place, I had good memories and I still ordered to defend it from destruction someone else mentioned, and to defend other people... and I took a chance believing in someone else.

I could've said I hated every guy in the world and blamed every one of my problems on males, but did I ever do that? Did I blame all of my problems on every male on the planet and lump every guy in one basket and then proceed to do horrible things to every male I came across? Take some damn responsibility... I got a clean conscience in that I never 'killed' other people, but that's probably why I died repeatedly.

Bear, even though things had turned out the way it did, I will still care about you no matter what and it wouldn't be too late. In the end, people can always change and they can start over and forget the past. The past doesn't matter anymore when people change. I'll help you get out of Suicide's garbage truck to escape an unpleasant fate if that's what you wanted, because I know Suicide's ultimately wrong... I had wanted to hold on to someone I couldn't remember, but I probably couldn't aid them if it meant doing something I felt would've been unacceptable... and I had wanted to see Suicide change for the better, but I know he probably wouldn't give a damn about me much when it came down to it.

The likelihood of me attempting to kill someone for power is next to improbable and it probably wouldn't be Wilder or his friends. Wilder is a nice guy and all... I'd just want other people to be happy even if it wasn't with me. There's somebody else that I like.

Eh, I don't think I even have a rivalry with someone, I'm like the person put into roles sometimes that I don't actually do just because it's a convenient way to explain what happens. I like rules and helping others as much as anyone and want to do good, but there's a limit to the rules that don't account for complexity of situations. It's not that I'm uncaring... I've never been that selfish. I do care, I just have trouble expressing it and people aren't always what they look like.

Don't blame hunger for power on me. If I wanted to, I could have by now if I didn't have a conscience and didn't think about other people. Really, the only thing I would do with that power is be boring and help other people. I'm called a traitor by somebody because I'm loyal to a select few people and it's only to a point. Don't expect me to be blindly loyal when I can't agree. I'll help somebody if I think they're innocent, happen to be under my charge or I think they don't deserve to fall. I forgave someone already... I'm kind of annoyed at being portrayed as a sociopath when I'm not.

Mike, I like women in general. If someone leaves me for someone else, that's not really a reason I'd seek revenge for. That's a dumb reason to seek revenge for and I wouldn't in any way harm the lady... Don't even blame that on me man.

I'd be willing to be friends with just about anyone to a point, because the past is far behind, while I'm moving forward.