The article which was deleted was due to it having been hijacked from another character. Hmm. Tell you what, write up the article under your namespace; User:DragonDude83/Bergan; and ask me to review it when reasonably ready. If good, I'll move it to an article page.
[hug] Worry not. You might even go through this a few times more. It's natural and not at all stupid. Most of us do this. In the past the question for born-as-males was, "Am I just a wussie?" because thoughts of gender fluidity was not even thought of, but it was basically the same.